Has anyone else been confronted with having to chose either a VBAC or repeat C?

I am soooo torn between my wants/needs/fear ect all while worrying what's best for the baby. I had FTP (failure to progress) with my first. I am very petite 5' and have a tiny frame and she was a beast for my body at 8lbs and 21inches. I was 41 weeks and a few days late. I showed no signs of labor except being consistantly a finger tip dilated without my cervix being even the slightest bit rippened ect. I was given cervidel didnt work and taken off it after like 35 mins. Next morning pitocin after almost 12 hours and only gettin 1 more centimeter dilated with the pitocin turned as high as they could get it and having had my water broken. Basically my baby was NOT comming out without me being sliced and diced. I was miserable exhausted in extreme pain ect. I had a c-section that had I known I was going to have I would have planned to have things a bit different. However if this time i have another; I know what I need different with a c-section. I of course have that natural motherly desire to have my baby naturally (well lly I deff want an epi). But also the fear of so much pain and long wasted labor scares me more. I feel like I wasn't my best for my baby because I was on extra drugs and extra tired and conused and upset the list goes on. The Dr. and myself have agreed that as long as everything continues to appear safe that I will go to about 38-38 1/2 weeks; if I have not dialated at all am not at all rippened effaced ect. then well drop it and do the c. However if I am showing positive signs of labor then I will go for it. But even though this agreement is the best of both I am still feeling like it is insufficent. I want to know asap exactly how I am having this baby. If it's gonna b a c-section i want to know well in advanced so I can help pick a great B-day and prepare myself mentally and everything. What has anyone else faced with this done? How did it all end up? Would you have done it differently? I will add that will want at least 1-2 more babies in the future and i do know that another c-section means that I will forever have c-sections as well as it lowering the ease of getting pregnant. Which also scares me! and confuses me more!